Hi everyone. I wanted to take a moment to say thank you for all of the heartfelt well wishes over the last week. It meant a lot to know that you were all thinking of my family through this very difficult time.
It has been a very hard week. Every day I start to think, “Hey, maybe I’ll feel better today,” but something happens, something small usually, and I start to feel so overwhelmed again.
Losing my mom was very unexpected. She was very sick. She had been sick for a long time but hadn’t been diagnosed as terminal so we all thought we had more time. A lot more time than we were given. On New Year’s Eve Mr. North and I toasted in the year with her and she told me, “This is going to be the best year ever.” After losing her so early into the year, it’s hard to let myself believe that, but I keep telling myself she would want me to do what I can to make this the best year ever.
These are the first words I’ve written this week. I haven’t felt much like writing, but tonight I was watching one of my mom’s favorite movies with my dad and there were twitches in my mind. A longing to return to the comfortable embrace of my characters, even though their lives aren’t always comfortable or safe. I feel safe in their world, and right now I need that.
I have hope that tomorrow morning I will wake up and feel ready to write again. I also hope to have at least part one of the next chapter posted to the site by Monday at the latest.
Thank you all for everything. I may have been silent, but your thoughts were with me and that helped me get through this difficult time more than you could ever know.
*hugs*
I was just about to e-mail you and ask you if everything’s fine, eep.
Take your time bubu, I know that gross feeling, and I’m here for you okay? ♥♥♥
Erica it’s wonderful to hear from you dear. I know that these next few weeks and months are gonna be difficult, but know we are all here for you. Just remember, this too shall pass.
I have been thinking about you a lot and wondering how you were getting by. Thanks for letting us know how you were doing. Take care of yourself.
I don’t have anything more to say because everyone’s been so eloquent…. and you already know we love you and are always here so I’mma just gonna slink away quietly.
I think about you lots and lots. I’m around whenever you need anything.
I’m so sorry to hear about your mother Erica, thoughts are with you and family right now <3
I’ve been wondering every day how you were doing, hon. Even shoved aside my personal beliefs for a second and sent a prayer to anyone listening. We love you, Erica.
Glad to see a post from you. I hope that each day becomes a bit easier for you and that you can channel your feelings through the wonderful stories you are writing! So sorry for your loss…
I’ve been thinking of you, and I know it must be incredibly hard for you right now, but I hope that you’ve found some distraction in the things you’re passionate about. It may not ever stop hurting, but it will get easier. Chin up, and like Laverna said, this too shall pass.
I can tell this things always leave a “mourning time”, but I’m glad to hear you still want to have “the best year ever”
I’ve been thinking of you and wondering how you’re holding up. Thanks for popping in and letting us know how you’re doing. Take your time and mourn as you need to. We will be here.
Glad to hear from you-I have been thinking of you. Take all the time you need and we will all be here when you are ready.
Hi. I’m happy you posted, and I just want to say that I’m sorry for your loss. I know the feeling. Take all the time you need.